Today is just one of those days that I feel sad, but for no particular reason. I feel homesick but I’ve only been gone from the USA for a month. I feel like crying. I feel like I need 12 antidepressants but only took my normal ONE. It’s one of those times that there are so many thoughts swirling around my brain but no real order or rhyme or reason.
I had thoughts of baking cookies this afternoon and then inviting my friend over for coffee and cookies in the afternoon. However, when it came right down to it, I just could not motivate myself to do any of that. So, the chocolate chips are still sitting on the kitchen counter, waiting to be used.
I did have bacon tonight. And Lucky Charms earlier. Sometimes, on days like this, you have to spend the little extra money that Lucky Charms cost because you just need Lucky Charms. Yes, I am 35 and I like Lucky Charms. It’s true and there is really no sense in trying to deny it.
Oh my gosh I am 35.
Tonight at supper, the girls sang a song in Spanish that they sing at school everyday. It says thank you to Jesus for His love. They sing it every afternoon just before they leave their classroom for the day.
I feel like I’m on the brink of writing something so profound. I feel, also, that this profound-ness is not going to happen tonight in the middle of my randomness.
Mirjam said,
March 25, 2011 at 7:56 pm
Hi Becky, it’s so great you have finally moved to Panama. I am thinking of you so much and praying for you guys! I really miss you here. Hope you get out of your Blues soon
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.. Love you lots, Mirjam
We are doing fine, going to Malawi (!) early tomorrow morning to our EBM staff retreat… Kids are on holiday now for two weeks. YEAH!! Alex has accepted a job offer in Austria so we will move back home in April/ May 2012… really strange after 10 years but in many ways I am ready to go